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There were three people that helped me along the way when I first joined LS. That was Melanie (B), Rojas & Jerry. All three of them were aboustley brilliant, they were saints.

Rojas was a very kind man, very friendly & kind-hearted. One of the most horrible illness struck him and now we have lost a very dear friend. He put his heart & soul into what he did & I admire him truly for it.

A brilliant guy, never forgotten.

Sean.

Vaya con Dios, old friend.

AAPlus for me was a unknown team member at LS, there was no tribute or any information posted, so I personally did not know of what he was going through.

I have seen HJThis and his great work, and old posts that AAPlus had posted. Both of amazing standard with the same attuide....

I truely wish I knew him, from reading this, he was the heart of LS. The joint creator of the team that I later joined.

From his work, he produced the atmosphere of the team.

My sympathys go out to his family.

I only wish a true tribute could of been posted at his forums, the forums that he helped at for so long, whenever possible.....

This is a sad day with the loss of AAPlus

But at least the suffering is over no more pain.

My sympathys go out to his family.

Hello,To all

To all those who replyed to this thread my deepest apologies
for the delay in my reply.

as some of you may know i lost my dad to
cancer. & on 9/12 my older brother passed
away on us, & as i was thinking god how

much more can my moms take 2 of my dads
brothers passed away a week apart it has
not been a good year to be a Rojas

i & the family thank you all from the
bottom of are heart for all your great
words they do help more then you can know

Thank you

Posted by: HJThis

i & the family thank you all from the
bottom of are heart for all your great
words they do help more then you can know

Thank you

You are most certainly WELCOME HJThis, you are every bit the strong symbol of integrity and spirit to this global security community as your most faithful and caring Dad always was.
I am to this very day still equally saddened and disheartened greatly that your father had to go thru such a painful and distressful time as did the entire family.
Speaking from experience of losing both my parents 2 years apart, i share in the dismay and heartache. There is no worse disappointment on earth then to discover a serious debilitating illness is claiming their health and one day suddenly waken to find those closest to you are no longer within reach. There are no replacements whatsoever that can ever substitute their absence, but if there is to be any consolation to these experiences we are met with in this life, it has to be that another time and place will surely come when we once again can meet up with our most loved ones and be reunited within that other place and time to never have to part from them again.
That is my hope and encouragement, and hopefully you too can find something in these thoughts to help carry you thru some of those worse moments that often can and do return which are difficult at best to accept or understand.
Joe

I have finnaly came to terms with this.

I simply could not deal with GoGo being gone..
I have no words to explain it till now
I wrote something then it after reading it a few times, I knew who I writ it for....

Rojas I know you will appreciate it, I miss you so much my brother

Seventeen Screaming SpollyDoyings,
They are screaming and dancing again....
~_^

Seventeen Screaming SpollyDoyings dancing in my brain
None come, nor do they go
Appearring uninvited as I carry on
Disrupting the chain of my normal thought
Where do they hide when I need them
Looking into the eye of my own confusion
Seeing answers to problems I do not have
Others thank me and walk away
A twisted smile covers my long face
    and I stand here alone without
    without the clue or the missing piece
    to find the empty hole that is in my heart
    so I agin wander alone in my own abyss.
As I listen to their songs and watch them frolic
Inside my soul their happiness
Seems to be my continuing streaming tears
Uncontrolled they are, all seventeen
Only making the scene when I can feel pain
The pain that comes from within a wounded heart
A heart that has bled for others for to long
My feet do not carry me away from this pain
So I stay, listen, and help others with thier issues
    soon as always, I stand agin alone
    agin all alone, searching for the clue
    or the missing piece that I cannot find
    Knowing that my wisdom has helped another to continue on.
The screaming and dancing SpollyDoyings seem to know
My closing hour as they pick up their **** and go
Back into the depths of my brain or wherever they hide
As my conciousness catches up with the confusion factor
Created by the mindless fools that only care to take
I once agin I find my feet, this time they carry me away
Carrying me away to yet another place of unforseen greed
Greed contained inside of another shell of a once good person
Walking through clouds of hidden faces and minds of lost soles
    i silently cry as I once more see outstretch hands
    all of them begging and none with any nourishment
    so to the fields of my own open mind I find the food
    food I need to consume to continue on continuing on.
I am looking down at the feet that carry me on from field to field
Wondering how much of my own empty mind I can consume before
Finding those Seventeen Screaming SpollyDoyings that anchor me down
It seems that now I am eating into my own conciousness
Not bandaging the wounds that are bleeding me out
I know others see the stains on my heart and yet they continue
Continue cutting away at the wounds that they or others have opened
Feeding upon the kindness that I unmercifully share with all
While walking alone confused wondering why I am walking alone
    as another sunset comes and the sunrise goes
    backwards, yes it is, but it is my course and I walk it
    not all all alone as I have thought time and agin
    cause the vibrations are beginning to rattle my bones.
As one by one, the Seventeen Screaming SpollyDoyings appear
This time they emerge one at a time from my inner ear
They cross my cheek to stop on the tip of my nose
Standing there each one looks me deep into my eyes
Then simply start laughing, each with a different pitch
Looking deeper yet into my eyes they find what they want
I twitch feeling the loss that is their gain, feeling my awareness they turn
Laughing as they run away back to wherever they hide inside my brain
Dissappearing before I can capture one, I hear the dancing begin agin
    the headache is coming on now, but I live with it
    living with the hope that one day someone will appear
    someone that may help me round up them little bastards
    cause I know they have the clue to help me find my missing pieces.
The missing pieces I need to answer my own questions
The missing pieces that are the hole in my heart
The missing pieces needed to stop all of this rain
The missing pieces that are the blue skies of my life
The missing pieces of the sunshine of my soul
The missing pieces which are the ones needed by those who love
The missing pieces that make up the stage inside of me
The missing pieces of myself on which the Screaming SpollyDoyings preform
If it were to happen, then I would be able to dissappear
    the Seventeen Screaming SpollyDoyings know this
    and so do all that I know, and most that I have yet to meet
    the badgering will continue and I will keep scratching backs
    of those who are simply those who make up the human race.
As noone looks, I slip into my own clown suit and begin to laugh
Laugh I do, laughing with others as they do
Do they know it is me, do they care, do they?
The confused Seventeen Screaming SpollyDoyings emerge
They jump up and down upon my head until I agin
Wake up from that dream
Waking up to hear the reality of them dancing inside my head
Even in the neverKnow land of the asleepin
I am fooled by my foolish thoughts of an unknown happy reality
    so the hidden pieces stay hidden
    I continue on without a clue
    loving all life as I always do
    even with the thunder that reverberates inside of my head.
...I feel the Seventeen Screaming SpollyDoyings dance on and on
Singing the same song long into the night
and the lonely tears flow freely down my cheek
Dripping off, landing on the ground joining the others there
At my feet they pool together
Creating what is known to most
Simply as a mudPuddle...
Tired, I somehow find a place that I can truely rest
Time goes by and I recover, awakening to begin another path
    but, i know they are still there
    waiting for me
    to be me
    so they can once agin dance inside my brain
I will never change my simple vulnerable ways even though I alone feel the pain
Of those Seventeen Smiling SpolyDoings that live inside my brain.
   
IAMSKINZ
Co-Founding Member of ASAP
Alliance of Security Analysis Professionals
http://asap.maddoktor2.com/